Behind The Scenes

We recently did our fall photo shoot! This is always such a stressful situation for me because I have to worry about outfits, making sure we have a plethora of snacks and everyone is cooperating…including the husband.

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I found an AMAZING photographer who is equal parts adorable as talented. She shows up 9 months pregnant and throws her one year old on her back and gets to town! I’m impressed, to say the least!

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So this time we decided to try and bring our black lab, Harley, along for the ride. He’s almost 8 years old but every bit a puppy. To say this was a recipe for disaster is an understatement! But we don’t just stop when things are tough…right?! So here is the ONE picture we got with him. HA!

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Our morning appointment got pushed out to late afternoon due to a downpour which was ok with me. These oddly warm October days weren’t ideal for our sweaters! I thought the rain would cool it down a bit but what we got was a tornado of humidity which basically reverses the 3 hours I spent on my hair and makeup! Damn you, weather!! And truth be told, I could have tried to lose a little bit of weight but as I’ve learned at 33….I am who I am and I’ve accomplished a ton regardless of how the outside of me looks. And most importantly, I’m loved just like this! For the first time ever, after seeing pictures of myself I literally didn’t care what I looked like! I am so in love with the family I’ve made!

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Moving on, The dog participated for a total of 30 seconds. Just long enough to get one picture! His “I was here” marked and that was the end of it! It was hot, we were dressed for the artic, and the twins were NOT having any of this picture taking nonsense.

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At some point instead of doing poses we did more lifestyle pictures and these turned out really good and captured us just as we are. Literally, the one where Landon is resting his head on my shoulder was when we were walking between spots and we were just casually chatting about sleep training or something like that.

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I’m just so pleased with how these turned out! I had to share with you all. Our photographer NAILED it! Can’t wait to go back to her again and again. Literally, makes me want to get our wedding pictures done again. Aka…excuse to buy another pretty dress! 🙂

Do you get yearly pictures done or your family? My bigger question is what do you do with all the blown up pictures from the years before? I don’t want our walls to be infested with our narcissistic selves! Thoughts? Suggestions?!

Cheers to being older and FINALLY having a good and confident self-image! Xoxoxoxo

Lions…Tigers…And…Birds! Oh My!

The weather has been top notch these past few days! The AC is officially off and my bank account is thanking us! Husband and I are known for our spontaneous decisions when it comes to the weekend. This one being no exception! 

Saturday was his birthday. The big 3-8!! Christ! Talk about the clock ticking. I’m 33 however, he and I both agree that having kids after 40 isn’t easy anymore. So time to get things moving and pop a few more out! STAT! Since we still have three baby chicks in the freezer just waiting for us to thaw them out, it’s pretty exciting to think about the near prospect of adding to our crazy life! 

Ok I got off on a little tangent there….

As I was saying…his birthday. Pretty low-key, we had friends over. We ate pulled pork and Mac & cheese (don’t judge…game day here!) and watched Michigan State crush Iowa. 


Sunday was gorgeous! One of those fall days that was crisp and cold in the morning and by the afternoon the wind was cool but the sun was out and was warm enough that we could get away with just long sleeve shirts and no sweaters. Randomly, after the boys woke up from their one and only nap we decided to screw cleaning the house or any of that nonsense and go to the zoo!!! 

Near us is a small zoo but still with some bigger animals in it which is exciting. So we packed up the kids in a whirlwind and off we went! 

They loved the sea otters and penguins. Weren’t too sure about monkeys at all. Those guys are scary…I agree. Lion was cool but I don’t think they understood he was real! Camels were of no interest. The Rhinos were great to see but instead of checking those out, sweet little Landon pointed out a bug walking on the fence instead. This is precisely why kids under 2 are free. 

The farmyard animals and the free roaming peacocks were the most exciting. As was the bird room filled with cockatoos and what have you. Which was fricking terrifying….its like walking into a trap. One where no one gets out without bird poop on their head! 


Anyways, it was fun and makes me excited for the days when they are older and we can go to the bigger zoos! They’ll appreciate it way more then! 

And as soon as we got home…mama cracked open a little pumpkin ale to round out the weekend. Hope you all had a good one too! Helllllloooo Fall, so could to see your sweet ass again!

Cheers!!! Xoxoxoxo

Finding The Light

The weather is finally cooler here in Michigan and my favorite season has begun! Bring on the candles, fluffy blankets, and fuzzy socks. This season gives me all sorts of renewed energy to hunker down and make the house homey. 


So as you all know I was suffering from depression since I was 30 weeks pregnant. Going on almost 2 years this December and I’ve been working diligently to find a way out. It’s been hard. It got to the point where some days I would just sit on the floor, turn the tv on, and let the chaos commence all around me. And other times I couldn’t find the patience for anything while the world seemed to unravel all around me. It was scary! I was easy to snap and didn’t feel like giving the boys the mommy snuggles they so desired. How awful right?! 


Many days I felt like such a failure! I dreamed of being a mom since ages. I went through in vitro just to fulfill that dream for Christ’s sake! I wanted this so why couldn’t I get a grip on this and be the mom I should be?! 


After a huge lab work up my doctor saw that my progesterone level was extremely low which wasn’t a shock considering I had the same issue during the fertility treatments. So she ordered me a cream to rub on my leg each day and the first few days were scary. I was aggressive and nauseous. Then a week went by and here I am…several weeks in and finally feel like a piece of me is back. 

I have the patience to make 3 meals a day, read books when they bring me piles of them to read, do fun learning and crafty things with them, clean the house, and my favorite bit…snuggle endlessly! Somehow it feels like everything slowed down finally. I can breathe again. Smile again. Laugh again. 


I’m hoping this leg cream was the fix. This would be the best thing to happen to me and my family in 2 years. Can such an easy thing fix me? Trying not to think about it and just accepting it for what it’s giving me right now! 

Keep fighting PPD, parents!!! There is a light in all of us! We just need to fix the igniter switch. 

Cheers, loves! Xoxoxoxox

We Survived 7 Months!

Ya’ll….I took a mini timeout to get my life back together here. We hired a new nanny since I’ve been without for several months and I was burning out…BIG TIME burning out! My postpartum depression was really starting to dictate how my days were and having this small lease on life again has been so uplifting…I’m finally a good mom again.

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So in other news the boys turned 7 MONTHS! I can not believe I’ve been a mommy for 7 months. How great is that?! They are just so miraculous and true to form every time they turn another month they surprise me by showing me something new. This time Baby B was holding his own bottle…shortly followed by Baby A doing the same later on. Then Baby A showed me that he knew how to “play” with the fun bits on his activity jumper! How in the world?!

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It was a Saturday and absolutely gorgeous out. Not too hot, not too cold, just right said Goldilocks. And I decided to pack us all up, dog included, and head to a local park! This, my people, is a HUGE deal. I mean…we don’t get out much. Baby B is extremely needy and dramatic…but sweet as hell! And Baby A just takes it all in stride until he gets hungry and then he shits the bag. The husband has zero patience and the dog isn’t leash trained very well. So…this as I said was a huge undertaking on my part.

I made us a picnic, got the car all packed up and ready to go, and off we went. We walked around, the babies had things to look at and after about a 2 mile walk we stopped in a shaded area to feed the dudes and hang out. It was a dream. Seriously. So much so that the husband, with tears in his eyes, proclaimed, “This is one of the happiest days of my life.” Success.

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Don’t you just love moments that end up working out for the better? Life is getting easier. Slowly but surely. And I dabbled a bit in the alcohol department this weekend and didn’t wake up with a hangover because this girl had it under control! BAM!

Cheers!!!!

 

Painting With Twins

I’ve been trying to find ways to “play” with these boys now that they are awake more often between naps. I’ve got to fill up 2 hours or so with something other than laying on their play mat or bouncing in their jumpers. I’ve run out of ideas until I realized, I can still play with them like I would older kids, just a little more “revamped.”

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Hey Ma! The Meatloaf!!!

I got out some finger paints, freezer bags, computer paper, and a paint brush. Items you can get at a dollar store or you may already have at home.

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I just painted a few dots of finger paint all over the paper and closed up the bag. Now, people, we do know this isn’t a leave it with your kid to distract them kind of project, right? First thing my dudes did was put the bag in their mouths! So, unless you want a painted kid, floor, and furniture, I suggest you pay attention! Put down the martini, turn off Dr. Phil, and focus for a second! 🙂

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Put this in front of them and help them paint! I used my fingernail, or used blocks to make squares on the page once we mushed all the colors together. They are still young for real deal painting but this was fun for roughly 5 minutes. We talked about colors so they are definitely ready for Kindergarten now.

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Hmm…welp…what do we do here?
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Mom! Snacks?!
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YAY! Crafts!

OK, good parenting deed done for the day. Grab that martini and put back on Dr. Phil. Put your feet up! You earned it!

Cheers!!

Fabulous Findings!

You guys know I love free stuff. I mean, I am Free Willy up in this piece! The second someone offers something up for free I’m ALL over it. I never used to be like that. In fact, I used to think I lived a really fabulous life back in my early twenties in South Beach, Miami, FL. Yeah…you heard me….I was all that and then some (so I thought!)

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Yes…this was me at the ripe age of 23!

And then REAL life happened. We aren’t well off but we aren’t struggling either. We made some great choices and at the age of 30 we don’t have a mortgage. I’d say I learned all this from following the financial choices of my husband’s family. They live in Southern Germany and save EVERYTHING. Like really…everything. Every dime, every expired bottle of ketchup. Everything.

So I got the thrifty bug and try to save a dime wherever I can because in the end, it matters. And with twins who need toys and seeing as we are new parents with zero for kids in this house, we have been stocking up!

You saw my good find on my other post about the stroller and pool, etc. And just this weekend Daddy watched the babies while Mommy went off to gather up for free stuff to add to my hoarding collection.

 

How fun is that?! Free…and after a little bit of clean up with the Lysol..BAM…good as new. At this rate, I’ll be able to give the boys a new thing to play with every so often to keep their interests going. And I won’t have to buy too much when they are old enough to play with this stuff.

Look for a “Freecycling” group on Facebook in your town or closest area. It really is the best!

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Daddy and his babies…and the naked one crapped his entire outfit. AGAIN.

And there is the bell of freedom slaughtered. Baby B is up after his 20 minute nap. Yay…oh yay.

Here drinky, drinky, drinky!!! Come to mama!!

Cheers!!

She’s Crafty!

I was getting tired of doing the same thing with the boys. We have the toys we’ve bought or been given, they can lay on their play mat and kick around, or sit in their jumpers. But, none of that was really teaching them much.

So, I decided to play into their senses and make a few things! First up…sensory bag! This was crazy easy!

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What you need:

Hair gel

Gallon freezer bags

Colorful Pom poms or glitter stickers

Glitter (optional)

Colorful duct tape

I found all of these things in my local grocery store, Meijers. But the dollar store is a great place for all of this!
I filled up one bag full of gel (the whole bottle) then added in the colorful Pom poms and items. Closed the bag and then put it inside another freezer bag. Double it up for these twinados I’ve got!

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I then doubled the duct tape around all the edges and voila! So simple and so great! The bags crunch and the colors are bright. Easy!
They aren’t sure what to do just yet but they try to eat it which I then pull away immediately. lol. Little shits!

And it gives my hands a bit of a free moment to look up my next martini!

Cheers!!!!