I’ve been feeling pretty down on myself. I keep seeing this posts on social media of everyone dressing up their kids. Some are of parents and their first borns, some are of kids already grown, some are of twins. I just can not pull myself together enough to do dress up my own. I am exhausted. I am worn thing. I have zero stamina.
I feel like I’m failing at motherhood. My kids live in pajamas and we don’t leave the house very much. It takes double the time to get them ready and now with colder weather, to get them bundled. Plus, I am ONE person with zero breaks for myself. If we can make it outside for a daily walk then I have won the day, in my mind.
We follow a pretty strict eat, play, sleep, repeat schedule that I don’t have enough time in the day to take them to a play date or to do anything other than what we are doing. Feeding them takes up an hour of our time, and that leaves us with exactly 1.5 hours until nap time.
My point is, I’m happy for families that can pull it together and do all these things. But I’m hoping that I am making enough memories with these little guys. I have no family here and all the neighbors/”friends” that said they would help out once the babies were born have somehow fallen off the face of the earth. Funny how that happens. The husband works 60+ hours a week and from morning until night, it’s just me.
I’m trying, I really am. But I can barely get out of bed myself these days. 8 months into motherhood and I’m pretty sure the mistakes are somewhere in the millions. I hope these dudes will forgive me one day for not having much variety in their baby albums. Sorry, kiddos….mommy was too busy trying to help us all survive!
Anyone else feel like this sometimes? This mother stuff is HARD work!